Why Journaling Is So Important

Recently, I have purchased myself a bullet journal, and a regular lined journal. In the past, I have attempted to start journaling but it never worked out. This time, I really set my mind to it, pulled some inspiration from instagram and Pinterest, and I journal almost daily.

In my bullet journal I have different spreads for my bucket list, travel thoughts, my daily workout, my fears, blog ideas, a workout tracker, anything and everything really. A bullet journal is meant to be beautiful and have an aesthetic to it, and since I am not artistic in any way, mine is far from perfect. I love it though and I love trying to imitate pretty spreads I see online.

As for my regular journal, I started writing down my thoughts, lists, and what goes on in my day to day life. I find it really therapeutic and freeing to write down all the highs and lows, good times and bad times. It helps to get my thoughts out on paper instead of them racing around my head at a mile a minute.

Now, onto why journaling is important and healthy. For one, it’s incredibly therapeutic. It can help you manage anxiety, reduce stress, and cope with depression. It also helps improve your mood by organizing your thoughts, and focusing on one thing.

Journaling also evokes mindfulness. It brings you into the present moment instead of worrying about the future or past. It helps make sense of everything going on in your life and brain at any given moment.

Adding journaling as part of your daily routine can become an important keystone part of your day. It generates clarity, optimizes creativity, and clears your emotions.

Personally, I write in my journal in order to release pent up emotions, create stability of my thoughts, and letting go of negative things that have happened in the past. I highly recommend journaling every day, even if you only write down a few words. It will truly improve your life and you will see a difference in the way you think.

~Eva

Get To Know Me Tag

Since I just started blogging a little while ago, I thought I would do the get to know me tag! It’s 30 questions for you to get to know me a little better:). I hope you enjoy getting to know me, and feel free to tell me a little bit about yourselves in the comments below, I am always trying to meet new people, and make new friends!

1.What is your middle name? Jordanne (the French spelling of Jordan)

2. What is your favorite color – Maroon

3. Who was your first best friend? – My first best friend was a girl named Emma in Kindergarten.

4. How tall are you? I am 5’11”, Super tall!

5. Cats or Dogs? Dogs 100%

6. Funniest moment throughout School? Probably preforming at a football game halftime, the feeling is indescribable.

7. How many countries have you visited? I have been to 20 countries!

8. Are you in/have you gone to college? I am going to college next year at the University of Pittsburgh.

9. What was your favorite/worst subject in High School? My best subjects were science and languages, and my worst was definitely math.

10. What is your Favorite drink? Either apple juice or milk.

11. What is your favorite animal? Elephants or dogs. Elephants are so smart and beautiful, and I have read many books on them.

12. What is your favorite perfume? I don’t usually wear perfume:/

13. Tea or Coffee? Coffee, with lots and lots of milk.

14. What would you (or have you) name(d) your children? I love the name Alexandre for a boy, and Avalynn for a girl, I want to have names that can be said in both French and English.

15. What Sports do you play/Have you played? I am a dancer, and have danced my whole life, but I did play soccer at one point.

16. What is your favorite book? My favorite book is definitely Leaving Time, or My Sisters Keeper, anything by Jodi Picoult really.

17. Who are some of your favorite YouTubers? I go through phases but am currently loving Kara and Nate, The bucket list family, Yes theory, Casey Neistat, and Zoella vlogs.

18. What is your favorite movie? Wonder Woman. Gal Gadot is so beautiful.

19. Are you Single or Taken? Taken!

20. Whats your idea of an ideal first date? An adventure! I want to have the time of my life and experience new things.

21. How many Girlfriends/Boyfriends have you had? Just 1

22. Favorite memory from childhood? This is way too hard, I can’t think of just one!

23. Do you speak any different languages and how well? I speak French and Spanish fluently.

24. Do you have any siblings? An older sister, Suzanne.

25. How would you describe your fashion sense? Whatever I’m feeling that day. Casual.

26. What is your favorite restaurant? Guapos

27. What are some of your favorite tv shows? Jane the virgin, new girl, black mirror, how I met your mother, friends, world of dance, criminal minds, stranger things.

28. PC or Mac? Mac

29. What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?) I have always been an iPhone user

30 Tell us one of your bad habits! Keeping all my feelings pent up inside. I am working on this and am trying to keep a journal to work on this.

~Eva

Why I Started Blogging

In high school, I let the fear of people judging me and laughing at me stop me from doing a lot of things I wanted to do. I didn’t post youtube videos even though I filmed them all the time, and I tried to start a blog but gave up many times. I wanted to stay hidden so that people from my school would never find out about these things. Because I got teased and made fun of for a lot of things, even by friends, and sometimes it really affected me. This was something I didn’t want to be mocked for, it’s something I’m passionate about and love doing, and being teased about things you love is the worst feeling ever.

So, I started many blogs and each time, I gave up. But as my senior year came to an end, I realized something. Life is too short. Life is too precious to worry about other people and to not take risks and do what you love. So, when I had time, I sat down and started this blog. I am still thinking of names, because I haven’t thought of one that I absolutely love yet, but we’re getting there.

My blog is slowly growing, and I truly enjoy sitting down and writing posts. I have 15 posts scheduled right now, and I am writing one, sometimes two new posts every day, while only posting 3 times a week. My posts vary from short to long, deep and thought provoking to silly little thoughts of mine, I love the freedom of writing whatever I want, and of sharing my thoughts with the world. I have always loved expressing myself and discussing things I love with others, and this blog lets me do just that. And I also get to make a ton of new friends!

Each day, I plan new post ideas in my journal, post on my instagram, interact with other bloggers, write new posts, and I am loving every minute of it! I don’t know what will happen in the future with this blog because of school and life can get busy sometimes, but I hope to continue it for a while.

If you want to try something new, do it! It could end up being the best experience of your life. I love writing this blog and it is a wonderful new experience, and I hope to continue growing it for a little while longer:)

~Eva

Missing Out

FOMO. Fear Of Missing Out. This was something I struggled with my whole life. Anytime my friends would go out without me, even if I couldn’t hang out because I had dance class, or a doctors appointment, I would still stalk social media to see all the fun they were having without me. Thinking of all the jokes and memories I was missing out on made me extremely jealous.

Social media makes this a thousand times worse. The fact that we can instantly share what we are doing at any moment through snapchat and instagram, and broadcast it to the world, so you know what your missing out on all the time. From the beginning of my social media days I followed the crowd. I too posted pictures and videos on social media of my travels, and my friends hanging out together, so in some way I contributed to the madness. I still find myself scrolling through instagram as a guilty pleasure, and I love posting photos on instagram of my trips and my friends, and this is something I am working on. I do not need to share every little thing I do and broadcast it.

Only this past year have I learned to suppress my FOMO. Sometimes I still get jealous, and occasionally I still stalk social media to find out what my friends are doing at that exact moment, but mostly, I like to think I have my FOMO under control. I have learned that it is more important to live life in the moment, and to focus on the now. Life is about being here, right now, living your life, instead of focusing and worrying on what’s going on in other peoples lives.

If I ever get jealous and begin to pity myself over my friends doing something fun and me sitting home alone, I think to myself, “Well hey stupid, if you want to be doing something, than text on of your friends and go do something!” But, if no-one responds, I enjoy my alone time and appreciate the silence. I’ve learned it’s good to do that sometimes. And if you learn to enjoy it, and be productive, then maybe sometimes you’ll even be okay with turning down offers to go out.

All in all, I believe it’s important to learn not to feel like you’re missing out if theres nowhere you’d rather be. Why sulk over other people having a good time? What a waste of energy right?

~Eva

Skin Care Routine

As I said, my blog is going to be a little all over the place at first, so here is my skin care routine! Up until a little while ago, I had no routine but since I started using the same products consistently, my skin is getting way better, and I do see a difference. Honestly, you need to find what works for you and not just do exactly what someone on youtube says, or a thread on twitter. Everyone is different, and it took me a while to realize that. So, with that being said, lets jump in.

Morning: 

In the morning, I don’t do that much, however I do try to cleanse my face before putting any makeup on it. First, I use some kind of face scrub/wash. Three times a week I use  Alba even advanced enzyme scrub, which is an exfoliating face scrub, and the other days of the week I use Neutrogena naturals facial cleanser, which is simply a cleanser. Then, I use my miscellar cleansing water to get any excess dirt or makeup off my face.

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Night:

At night, I clean my face again with the miscellar cleansing water to remove all my makeup. I then wash my face in the shower with Neutrogena acne wash, which my dermatologist recommended to me. After my shower I put on some Neutrogena clear pore, which clears out my pores. And once I am in bed I put on clindamycin phosphate topical lotion, which my dermatologist prescribed. I use this stuff is because I do have really bad acne, and epiduo was not working for me.

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Overall, I recommend trying to keep your face as clean as possible, makeup and dirt free. Other tips I recommend are drinking water, changing your pillow case every week, avoiding touching your face as much as possible, and avoiding sugary/junk foods. These are all things I have started doing, and I see a huge difference in my skin.

Let me know what works for your skin down below!
~Eva

Fears For The Future

In the fall I’ll be heading to college all on my own. It’s a huge change, but a big step forward towards my future. Already, I have had to make many big decisions regarding my school, my roommate, and my classes. It can be really scary taking this step in life, and I wanted to share with you some of my fears for college, and the future.

Struggling in my classes is a big concern of mine. What if I don’t get good grades, what    if I hate the classes I’m taking, what if my professor is horribly mean? I realize I will have to study much more in college than I did in high school, and I am trying to mentally prepare myself for that.

Using a community bathroom is also something I am nervous about. I like to be clean, and the concept of community bathrooms does not scream cleanliness to me. I know it will take some getting used to and that it is part of the college experience but I am not really looking forward to this one.

Finding my classes on the first day and being late to them is probably my biggest concern. I know this is probably a dumb thing to be nervous about, and that during my first week I will leave super early for all my classes, but being on time is a big concern of mine, and I really don’t want to make a bad first impression.

Not figuring out what career or major I want is another fear of mine. I know I have some time to figure this out, but I have done a lot of research and have no clue what I want to end up doing. The dream is to travel the world, make short films, and help people in need, but I know this is an ambitious plan and I need to work hard to achieve it.

Leaving my family and friends is probably the hardest thing about college. I am afraid to leave my mom, and know I will miss her every second of every day. It’s hard leaving someone who has been there through everything with you, and having to go off on your own. My friends will also be in college, and I know I will make new friends, but it still is hard to say goodbye. I’m hoping to keep in touch with them as best I can.

In regards to the earth and our country, I am afraid of the direction our country is heading, and the health of our earth. These are things I care deeply about, and I truly believe that if we don’t make a change now, things will continue to spiral very quickly downhill.

I know that once I step foot onto that campus things will become easier, but for now I am allowing myself to wonder and think about the future. Leaving for college is a huge step, and even though I’m nervous about some things, I am extremely excited for this new chapter in my life.

~Eva

 

My ACL Experience

This is going to be a really long post. Like super long, so I apologize in advance. It’s just that when I tore my ACL, I felt alone. I would search the internet for answers to my endless list of questions and never really found many answers. So, I thought I would share my experience with the world, in hopes that maybe someday someone who needs it will find this, and maybe find some answers they need.

First, I want to say that this happened my senior year. My last year of high school, my last year on a competitive dance team, my last year at home, my last year with my friends. It truly did ruin the entire year for me. I was so looking forward to my senior year being the best year of high school, and because of my ACL, among other reasons, it was not. One of the prime reasons that my ACL journey was really difficult was because of the way it happened. I am way to embarrassed to tell you how but trust me, it was the dumbest decision of my life, and I regret it more than anything I have ever done. A lot of people mock me, and make fun of me for the way I tore it and that also made it really difficult for me.

I danced on a torn ACL for a month. My knee kept giving out, which was excruciating, and I couldn’t straighten my knee all the way. I though I tore my meniscus and was expecting a quick two month recovery. I visited the doctor three times before getting the news that I tore my ACL, which just made me incredibly angry because I wasted precious time in those weeks my doctor misdiagnosed me.

I decided to wait until after homecoming to have my surgery because this was already ruining my whole year, and I wanted to be able to participate in my last homecoming week and dance. At the football game that night, I broke down on the sidelines watching my team preform without me. It felt like the most unfair thing in the world to me and it was so unbelievably painful for me to not be able to dance. I don’t think anyone will ever be able to understand that pain.

For weeks before, and even after my surgery I would break down and cry for hours feeling like nothing could stop the pain I was feeling in my heart. I know how selfish I sound right now and that there are people all over the world dying and hungry and my problem is nothing compared to that. But, in that moment, it truly felt like nothing would ever make me happy again.

My surgery went smoothly, I had completely torn my ACL, and partially torn my meniscus. When I woke up I was in a lot of pain but they quickly loaded me up with medicine and I felt a lot better. I got home and my leg was completely numb because of the nerve blocks so I assumed it wouldn’t be that bad. I had an ice machine, circulating ice to my leg constantly, and was on Percocet and oxytocin.

I was in bed, at home for a total of a week and a half. I. was. so. bored. I watched Netflix and youtube all day long. My friends came over but most of the time I didn’t want them to. A lot of times they would come over without asking which really upset me, but I didn’t show it. I know this also sounds selfish but I was in a lot of pain. Like a lot. And I needed to be alone.

Let me tell you, ACL surgery is no joke. It is not fun. It is so extremely painful in an achy way and I could not stand it. The Percocet was fine, it made me very woozy and light headed, but I didn’t become addicted at all which I read was a big concern about taking this drug after ACL surgery.

One day, after being literally stuck in my room, with no fresh air for a week, I began to feel claustrophobic. I had a panic attack I guess, and I knew I had to get out of there. I got out of bed for the first time in a week and I climbed the stairs on my crutches and went outside in my driveway. In hindsight, this was very dangerous because I could’ve fallen down the stairs and no-one was home but I really was sick of it. That was a pretty bad day for me.

Another terrible experience was weaning of the drugs. I got so so so so sick. I was throwing up and it was just a horrific experience, especially when you can barely move. I have vowed to never be in a situation where I need to take Percocet ever again.

The last really bad thing I can think of was the crutches, and the brace. I was on crutches for 7 weeks. I had crutches at school and had to walk up and down the stairs with them and everyone had to do everything for me. I hate crutches. And then the brace. This thing is huge, it covers your entire leg and just really sucks. Sleeping with it was horrible as well as the fact that I couldn’t bend my knee in it and it put a lot of pressure on the sensitive, swollen area of my knee.

Physical therapy was one of the bright sides of this whole experience. I loved my therapist and truly enjoyed going twice a week. It was nice to work towards being able to dance fully again and to be able to see results.

The last thing I will say about this because I know I’m rambling, is that you really find out who your true friends are when something like this happens. It was hard for me at first, but really nice to know who was really there for me.

I am still not done with my recovery, 9 months later, and don’t know when I will be confident enough to dance again fully. This experience has definitely taught me a lot and I am so grateful for the people who helped me and sent me words of encouragement throughout this long journey. Please, feel free to share your thoughts and experiences with me in the comments, or over email.

~Eva

Choosing The Right College For You

It took me a long time to decide where I wanted to go to school. It’s a huge decision and it’s a lot of pressure to decide where you’re going to live for the next few years of your life. But, when I finally stepped onto the pitt campus, I knew it was where I belonged. I know this isn’t the case for many people but let me take you through my thought process and how I decided which was the right school for me.

Choosing where to apply:

Choosing which schools to apply to is a tedious process, because of the amount of research you must do and the whole college visit experience. I highly recommend using, the College Board college search, a system that lets you input different criteria, and gives you a bunch of different schools that fit those options. From the list it gives you, you can research the schools and decide which ones to visit, and to apply to.

Narrowing it down:

After being accepted to a variety of different colleges, I recommend doing your research. It’s important for you to know everything from class size, to rankings, to campus location. Researching things that are important to you is another key point in narrowing down your list. Maybe one school doesn’t have the football team you wanted, or another doesn’t have the minor you’re thinking about. Knowing these things is essential in removing schools off your list.

Visiting:

When I walked on a campus, I knew immediately whether I liked the school or not. For many people, campus isn’t an important aspect for them. But for some, like me, it’s super important to live somewhere you’re going to love. Visiting the schools before you make your decision will really help you make your decision.

Making the decision:

Pulling the trigger, and choosing a college can be difficult for some because of all the stress, tension, and “what ifs” attached to that big decision. But, at the end of the day, if you’re unhappy at the school you choose, you always have the opportunity to transfer and maybe you’ll end up at your dream school. This is a big decision to make, and take your time figuring out where you want to go. But, I highly recommend choosing your school at least two weeks before the May first deadline, so that you’re less rushed in your decision.

Please share with me your college decisions below, were you happy with your choice?

~Eva

Seek Discomfort

Imagine all the time you waste sitting on your phone all day, longing for the lives of the people inside your screen instead of going out and creating that life for yourself. Imagine what  you could do if you stepped out of your comfort zone. Would you learn to play the piano? Would you go swim with sharks? Would you jump out of an airplane?

Seek discomfort is a movement started by Yes Theory, a group of guys who started a youtube channel to spread the seek discomfort movement. I began watching them a few months ago, and fell in love with what they do. They live their lives based on the premise that the times you step out of your comfort zone are the times your brain chemistry evolves, and you feel truly alive.

You must ask yourself this:

Are you living a life you would want to relive?

This got me thinking. All those times I avoided things because I was scared, would I have truly enjoyed them? So, I sat down, and added some things to my bucket list. Things I would have never done before because I was too afraid. I encourage you to do this as well. Maybe those things you have been avoiding will be the best times of your life.

I have been trying to live my life differently since watching these videos. I’m only 17, and I have my whole life ahead of me. I have been trying to read more, journal, jumping off waterfalls, hang out with my friends, meet new people, explore new places, starting this blog. I’m trying to create days that I would want to relive. Days that are filled with joy and fun and happiness.

I have a slight fear of heights, and of speaking to strangers. These are two things that I am working on. Maybe that stranger will be my new best friend, or the person that will take me on the adventure of a lifetime. Maybe jumping off that cliff will be the best feeling of my life, and maybe I will skydive and want to do it 10 more times.

It’s hard to find time to do everything you want to do. To go on adventures and travel the world. But my goal is to cross everything off my bucket list, to do a few crazy things in my lifetime, to inspire others. I want to end up at my dream job where I am not trapped and bored every day.

Starting this blog and making more youtube videos is something that I have never done because of fear. Fear of people judging me and mocking me. But, I have learned to not care what people think, and do things that I love and am passionate about.

In college I am going to strive to try new things every day, volunteer, take classes I am interested in, find my passion. I’m trying to live a life I would want to relive, and even stepping out of my comfort zone a little. And I challenge you to do the same.

~Eva

Why Internships Are So Valuable

This past year, I had the opportunity to work in a company, at an internship. It was such a fantastic experience that I want to share with you why I decided to apply, what my responsibilities were, and why the internship was so valuable to me and my future.

Before telling you why I believe internships are so important, let me begin by telling you about my personal experience. I had an internship with a tutoring company that had helped me prepare for my ACT the previous year. The internship was available to all high school seniors that they had worked with the previous year, and there were three positions up for grabs. I ended up with the position of digital communications/educational programs assistant. Throughout my internship, I edited and rewrote my cover letter, communicated with clients, wrote blog posts, and made flyers and emails to send out.

Internships are a crucial piece of the puzzle when thinking about your future career and work. However, they are becoming more and more difficult to get, especially paid internships. However paid or unpaid, they are still wonderful experiences that are extremely valuable for the future. First off, they give you a taste of the career you are working in. It’s an opportunity for you to work in a company, trying out different future career possibilities. Second, if they’re paid, it’s a fantastic way to make money while gaining work experience. Which brings us to the third point, internships are amazing to add to your resume. They show that you have work ethic that can’t be shown through your grades, or clubs you participate in. It’s also an opportunity to become close with your employer, who could write you a fantastic letter of recommendation.

If you are on the fence about applying, or accepting an internship position, I say, go for it. Do your research and find the best fit for you, and you will have a wonderful experience in the workplace. You may even find your future employer, job, or career!

~Eva